Sometimes I feel like I don't exist, like if I were to just not be there that the world would just keep moving and I'd leave 0 impact on people's lives. I feel like a waste of time and space. I was already an accident at birth. All I want is to be loved and be called a friend. I've probably done it to myself. Being a shut in and all. Who's life have I even impacted. All I am is a void for matter and time. I just want to be useful. I want to be known as a person who's worth talking to but I guess that's a lost cause since I don't know how to be. Maybe the whole reason I want to be a singer is not because I want to leave a legacy. Maybe it's because then I'll get the attention I craved, the love I craved, the friendship I craved. But I know it's a hollow wish. I can't even give myself my own voice. I sound like every other goddamn singer. And drawing doesn't help either it just makes me feel more incompitent. Some times I wish I could just fade away or disappear but I'm not bold enough. Sometimes I wish I could just live someone else's life but I know that's not possible. Sometimes I wish i could run away but I haven't got the money for that. I guess the main thing I'm trying to say is. I wish I had a friend who'd always be there for me but I guess that might be asking too much.
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| Added: | 6 years, 7 months ago 11 Nov 2018 07:09 CET |
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